166.6

:D:D

167

:)

168.8

This week did not go well.

Weekly weight goal: 165
Actual weight: 168.8

Weight gain for the week: .6 pounds.


Whatevs, I am okay with it.

169.2

So as you know I cheated on Saturday, so I have been basically trying to lose that cheat weight all week. My goal is to make 167.2 by Friday (a pound weight loss from last Friday). I think it should be doable. After that, I should be back on track to get down to my weight loss goals if I REALLY make an effort. I want to be under 160 by the time school starts. It may not be doable/realistic, but I am definitely going to try. I actually feel okay about the way I look in the 150's, so yeah... should be a good way to begin the semester. I have 26 days until the semester begins, meaning I have 26 days to lose 9.3 pounds. Around 3 pounds a week... it IS possible, but it will mean lots of exercise and determination.

Not drinking has become shockingly easy; I am SO used to not drinking at the bar that I really do not even think about it anymore. I am going to attempt to not drink throughout the whole semester, with my first drink being the last day of the semester. That should be in like four and a half months. Collectively that will be about six months of not drinking. If I succeed in that, it will be AMAZING. It will prove that I am able to control myself when it comes to alcohol and that I do not need alcohol to enjoy myself... both things I very much want to prove to myself and others. Sometimes I worry that my friends won't like me as much without alcohol... stupid worry, really. Why would I want to be friends with people who only have fun with me when I am drunk? I don't know, man.

I drove for the first time in over a year yesterday! FELT GREAT! I cannot wait to get my car and continue on with my life!

Outfit 1

Going to do outfit updates in August... I was extremely disappointed with how these photos turned out, but whatevs. I think I have opposite body dysmorphia disorder, meaning I think I am thinner than I am.





Shirt: H&M
Skirt: Forever 21
Shoes: Jeffrey Campbell via Nastygal
Rings: Forever 21 & random LJ user

I cheated on Saturday & ate a 15" (probably around 2.5-3 pound) steak burrito with guacamole. I was really depressed about it yesterday but I am okay with it now... just time to regroup and get back on track. I am confident I will reach 167 (last week's goal) by Friday, and can make it to 163 (my goal weight two weeks from Friday) by then. I am taking this cheat as an opportunity to re-start my low carb and get focused again.
Eye on the prize, eye on the prize...

Today marks the beginning of my studying before school starts. One hour a day (at least) for the 28 days before school starts. Still gonna keep reading and exercising as well. I wanna start sewing again as well. Once I get some money and a job I am definitely going to take that up again.

168.2

Didn't make it to 168... oh well! Very close though :)

Weekly goal weight: 167
Actual weight: 168.2

Weekly weight loss: 1.8 lbs.

168.6

I actually think it is more like 168.2, but I got up in the middle of the night and drank water and ate jello, so I think that fucked me up.
Well, my wisdom teeth are out. It was super painful at the beginning but I am kinda used to it. The cold liquid diet wasn't so bad: low carb ice cream, sugar free jello, and tuna fish. Oh, and my mom also got me sugar free red bull :) All-in-all it was a decent day for eating, but I would be lying if I said I didn't expect the scale to be a little lower. Still, as I said, it was 168.2 before I started snacking in the middle of the night, so that is cool :) Tomorrow's goal is 167... doubtful, but as long as I weigh 167._ I will be happy, even if it is 167.9; I just want this week's weight loss to be over two pounds.

169

UGHHHH when will I be down to 168!? Only a pound lost since Friday. Blahhhhh.

169.2

I always lose A LOT less over the weekend because I am less rigid about my eating and I don't exercise. This past weekend, like the weekend before, I drank a lot of red bull and had very erratic sleeping patterns. I also had a non-alcoholic beer, which is a bit carby. Brett & I got Thai food on Saturday, which probably wasn't the best thing to eat; still, I think I am doing well. I have no doubt that I should be able to reach my goal of 167 by Friday! :)

169.4

Yay :)

PS& I am in keto!

170

Weekly goal weight: 169
Actual weight: 170

Weight loss this week: 1.6 pounds

Kinda bummed I did not get into the 160's this week, but the scale was going back and forth between 169.4-170, so at least I am damn close. I think the intense workouts this week have caused me to gain muscle, which weighs more than fat. Either way, I know I am doing what I need to do to keep this weight loss going. I think I can reach next week's goal of 167. MUST LOSE THREE POUNDS!! I am getting my wisdom teeth removed this week... we'll see how that affects my weight loss.

170.2

So I have lost 1.4 pounds so far this week... need to lose 1.2 more by tomorrow to reach goal. Believe it or not, I think I can! I am going to exercise a lot today and keep a positive attitude :) Either way as long as I lose .6 more this week I will be happy because that will be a 2 pound weight loss for the week, which is my goal every week until I reach my goal weight.

Being so motivated is scary, but in a good way. I feel like I was constantly sabotaging myself before. Why? I don't know, but I do know I was always fucking up for no real reason. Not this time... I deserve to have my dreams come true.

Here is Brett & I at the wedding! I don't look too shabby, do I!?

171.4

Only lost .2 pounds ALL WEEKEND! That kind of sucks but overall I am okay with it since I kind of goofed up on Friday by drinking two non-alcoholic beers (I TOTALLLLLY forgot they had carbs) and I had the wedding this past weekend. I did not cheat at all at the wedding, but the lack of exercise all weekend is probably what stunted my weight loss. That and I am on my period, which is keeping me bloated and grossssssss. I think I still should be able to reach my Friday goal of 169 (must lost 2.4 pounds) if I exercise daily and keep doing everything I am supposed to be doing.

Also --- I have not had a drink in over two weeks. Go go me!

Here is a picture of little ol' me at the wedding!



The wedding was really fun :) I will post a full body picture later!

171.6

Week goal: 171
Actual weight: 171.6

Only .6 off of goal. That means I lost three pounds this week! That is awesome! I think I should be able to lose 2.6 pounds this week to bring me to next week's goal of 169. Gosh I cannot wait to be out of the 170's! The weight is really coming off with drinking out of the picture. Honestly, this weight loss could not be a better motivator to keep me off of the liquor. I feel like a new person. I have been reading everyday, doing a bit around the house, trying to exercise... I feel like I am really on track and I am liking it.

172.8

But I know it is actually lower because I haven't gone to the bathroom in quite a few days... once I go I think I will be down below 172. I just hate this weight loss because until I get below 168 I feel like I am just working to lose weight I already lost, which isn't as exciting as losing new weight. But once i am below 168, which should be within the next couple weeks, I will be really happy.

173ish

I did not drink AT ALL this weekend. Sticking to my goals and feeling good...
I think I should be able to make my 171 goal for Friday... if I am not 171, I should be somewhere right around there.

Goal of the week aside from 171: work out everyday this week.

Can I do this? Yes!
Will I? Hell yes!

My DUI class has been a huge eye-opener. I feel like although I am not an alcoholic I do have a problem with drinking; I am unable to control myself while drinking. It always ends up too much and I always wake up feeling terrible. I have made the decision to quit drinking for six months, with the possibility of quitting for good. I want to be able to have fun without alcohol and I also want to be able to have the confidence to put myself out there to make friends without alcohol. I know it will be hard, but I have my DUI classes to keep me focused. I am also thinking about attending local AA meetings... maybe once a week, or something. Anyway, with alcohol ACTUALLY out of the way (unlike when I claim I am going to quit and don't), weight loss is an actuality. Drinking fucks up my blood sugar which is terrible for low carb. I also always cheat the day after a night of drinking. No alcohol = no cheating.

Weight loss goals:
7/8: 174.6
7/15: 171
7/22: 169
7/29: 167
8/5: 165
8/12: 163
8/19: 161
8/26: 159
9/2: 157
9/9: 155
9/16: 153
9/23: 151
9/30: 149
10/7: 147
10/14: 145
10/21: 143
10/28: 141
11/4: 139
11/11: 137
11/18: 135
11/25: 133
12/2: 131
12/9: 129
12/16: 127
12/23: 125
12/30: 123
1/6: 121
1/13: 119 *goal met*

168.2

holla!

169.4

so.fucking.happy
i know the weight is a little lower than usual because i drank yesterday (one light beer and a lot of wine) but fuck, to be in the 160's is amazing.

171.6

this is getting REALLY exciting.
i will probably weigh in around 171 tomorrow... maybe even less! i cannot wait to be out of the 170's FOREVER. when i got out of the 180's i legit did not get back into them, so i am hoping that when i say goodbye to the 170's i will be saying goodbye forever :)
i haven't been in the 160's in like three years... and even then i was like 168ish.

172...

lightest weight i have seen on the scale in two years! gahhh i am happy :)

I am back!

So I kind of put the whole weight loss thing on hold for a while but I am back with just as much dedication as I had in the beginning. I SUCCESSFULLY have given up hard liquor (which subsequently has become one of the best decisions I have ever made) and renewed my dedication to low carb (I was eating fairly low carb, but allowed way more than I usually did). Now the weight is coming off and I am excited to see what happens!
Friday goal (4/8): 171
4/15: 169
4/22: 166
4/29: 164
5/6: 161
5/13: 159
5/20: 157
5/27: 154
5/31 (Tuesday, my birthday!): 152-153
6/3: 151.5
6/10: 149.5
6/17: 147
6/24: 144
7/1: 142
7/8: 139.5
7/15: 137.5
7/22: 135
7/29: 132
8/5: 130
8/12: 128
8/19: 126
8/26: 124